Moonlight is bleeding from out of your soul

March 21, 2016
I have now been out a year!!!!! Ah!

Totes ma Gotes

 This week went by so fast, yet so much happened. I don't even know where to start...

 

-I held a baby goat. And was very very happy about it. 

 

 

 

-We found three new investigators!!! Ah! We were trying to visit some less active members, but none of them were home. I saw a man in his yard and decided to talk to him! He ended up letting us in, and we go to talk with him and his wife! I think my favorite part was when we asked him if he knew what the Book of Mormon was and he said, "No....but I want to read it!" We also met a man named Zan. Again, we were visiting people who were not home and decided to tract the area. He is AMAZING. I have never met someone so self-aware and honest in my life. He was so open, and willing to read from the Book of Mormon for comfort and guidance. 

 

-it snowed!!!!!! WHAT THE WHAT

-I gave a talk at church!! It was the same topic I was given for my talk in Nauvoo, and for a training I did recently. Divine Communication! (If anyone wants it, let me know.) 

-We finally met a lot of the investigators the elders were working with before we got here!! They are all amazing! 

-An inactive couple CALLED US (never happens) and wanted us to come over!! 

-We met our neighbor right under us, and she let us in and told us her life story! That is, what I like to call, a tag perk. As soon as people see our tags, they either run away or tell us everything. I love it. 

-An inactive woman is letting us meet with her, and she also told us her story this week. There were tears, laughs, and hugs. 

-I've been privileged enough to see A LOT of cats. 

I can't believe my time in Virginia is coming to an end so soon. I will miss the rolling hills, the trees, and most importantly the people. It's funny how you can go about your life just fine, and then out of nowhere you meet people who change you. And after they've changed you there's no going back—You will never again have that life where you didn't know them, and you will never want a life where you don't know them. When we were talking with Zan, I explained that it's possible to not be miserable but to not be happy either. When we are alone, and disconnected with others, we can be in an empty state of contentment. As I've mentioned before, suffering comes from desire. Take the desire away and you may not have suffering, but you won't have much of anything else either. And I believe that our desires come from other people. We want good for others, we want bad for others, we want to be with others, and we want to look good in front of others. In order to truly love and feel we must allow ourselves to be connected. I believe that we are, indeed, connected but that we block these connections. We need to mourn with those who mourn, and comfort those who stand in the need of comfort. 

Love you all. ❤️

Lyrics today come from Lazarus by Porcupine Tree:

As the cheerless towns pass my window

I can see a washed out moon through the fog
And then a voice inside my head, breaks the analogue

And says

"Follow me down to the valley below You know
Moonlight is bleeding from out of your soul"

I survived against the will of my twisted folk

But in the deafness of my world the silence broke

And said

"Follow me down to the valley below You know
Moonlight is bleeding from out of your soul"

"My David don't you worry

This cold world is not for you
So rest your head upon me
I have strength to carry you"

(Ghosts of the twenties rising Golden summers just holding you)

"Follow me down to the valley below You know
Moonlight is bleeding from out of your soul
Come to us, Lazarus
It's time for you to go"